Julsnutter

Ironic

Wed, 21 Jan 2009 08:50:09 GMT

It's funny how some people lament so much on the pain others caused them and yet feel that the pains they caused others are justified.

Me.

Thu, 25 Oct 2007 18:07:58 GMT

Most of the time I'm just hurt and hostility is the only way i know to express myself.

Unspeakables

Sat, 20 Oct 2007 19:52:16 GMT

So much resentments but none can be put into words without jeopardizing my own situation.
Maybe its just me. maybe its them. I dunno. All i know is that I'm feeling all fucked up inside and i dunno how long I can remain rational towards all this shit.

Its a tormenting battle between principles and just but in the end, the thief and the decoy shares the same pie.

Dauntings

Sun, 14 Oct 2007 15:02:52 GMT

Every bit of perfection is intolerable.

Every bit of imperfection is despised upon.

What has become of me?

Job motivation

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 05:51:19 GMT

At work.

When you are not doing your job, keep in mind that its the others who do their jobs who are earning your pay for you. -Bambino

When you are not capable of doing your part and others who have to do it for you or clean up your mess, those people are the ones who earned the money you used to pay for your dinner.

Ms Wee must keep in mind.

One Hand in My Pocket - Alanis Morissette

Mon, 03 Sep 2007 06:29:15 GMT

I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah

I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful, baby

And when it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine, fine, fine
'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five

I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and i'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm workin, yeah

I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry, baby

When it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright
'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is flicking a cigarette

And when it all comes down to
Is that I havent got it all figured out just yet
'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket
and the other one is giving the peace sign

I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm hard but I'm friendly, baby

I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chicken shit
I'm sick but I'm pretty, baby

And when it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet
'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket
and the other one is playing a piano

And when it comes down to my dear friends, yeah
Is that everything is just fine, fine, fine
'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxi cab

Its Unfair. It always is.

Sun, 02 Sep 2007 18:58:15 GMT

Sometimes I really wonder if the people closest to my heart feel anything close to what i feel for them.

And I really hate myself for not being able to treat the ones who hold me dear better.

Its painful both ways but sometimes trying isn't all that helps.

Personality test

Tue, 28 Aug 2007 05:16:57 GMT

Your Score: 8 - the Asserter

Thanks for taking the test !

you chose AY - your Enneagram type is EIGHT (aka "The Challenger").

"I must be strong"

Asserters are direct, self-reliant, self-confident, and protective.

How to Get Along with Me

Stand up for yourself... and me.
Be confident, strong, and direct.
Don't gossip about me or betray my trust.
Be vulnerable and share your feelings. See and acknowledge my tender,vulnerable side.
Give me space to be alone.
Acknowledge the contributions I make, but don't flatter me.
I often speak in an assertive way. Don't automatically assume it'sa personal attack.
When I scream, curse, and stomp around, try to remember that's justthe way I am.

What I Like About Being a EIGHT

being independent and self-reliant
being able to take charge and meet challenges head on
being courageous, straightforward, and honest
getting all the enjoyment I can out of life
supporting, empowering, and protecting those close to me
upholding just causes

What's Hard About Being a EIGHT

overwhelming people with my bluntness; scaring them away when I don't intend to
being restless and impatient with others' incompetence
sticking my neck out for people and receiving no appreciation for it
never forgetting injuries or injustices
putting too much pressure on myself
getting high blood pressure when people don't obey the rules or whenthings don't go right

EIGHTs as Children Often

are independent; have an inner strength and a fighting spirit
are sometimes loners
seize control so they won't be controlled
fugure out others' weaknesses
attack verbally or physically when provoked
take charge in the family because they perceive themselves as the strongest, or grow up in difficult or abusive surroundings

EIGHTs as Parents

are often loyal, caring, involved, and devoted
are sometimes overprotective
can be demanding, controlling, and rigid

Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele

The Enneagram Made Easy
Discover the 9 Types of People
Harper SanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages

http://www.okcupid.com/tests/6711512663497470889/Quick-Painless-ENNEAGRAM

Wonderful people

Sat, 18 Aug 2007 19:45:59 GMT

I'm really really happy today.

This year's birthday is like one of the best I've ever had.
On the day itself I was actually pretty miserable but today really made everything perfect again.

I would like to give a million thanks to my dearest friends and colleagues for all the time, effort and of course the wonderful presents. This year's presents are not juz pleasant like other birthdays but they're really what i wanted and needed and they all came as a real surprise because i never really expect them to hit the jackpot. They weren't presents which you give just for the sake of giving but real thoughts were put in to get the right things.

I would like to thank in particular, yixin, who really spent the most time and effort to get the perfect present which i quite believed i'd prolly nv get, running around singapore and spending all the time just to look for it (becuz its reallyreally hard to find)and having to carry the heavy stuff and queue for donuts. best birthday cake ive ever had! haha! Thanks alot i really really appreciate it and im really touched tho im not really good at expressing it.

It was a real pity that yy was sick tho, it would be alot more complete with her around but still it was great!

Being 20 isn't so bad afterall. :)

Fallen

Fri, 10 Aug 2007 18:15:25 GMT

Heaven Bend to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight
Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
But the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I've tried I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here and
Tell me I told you so

We all begin out with good intent
Love is raw and young
We believed that we can change ourselves
The past can be undone
But we carry on our backs the burdens time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
I've held so dear

I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I've messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here and
Tell me I told you so

Heaven bent to take my hand
I've nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turn their heads embarrassed
Pretend that they don't see
But it's one missed step you'll slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed

Though I've tried I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I've messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here and
Tell me I told you so. no
I've messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here and
Tell me I told you so